I’ve been thinking about giving up this blog. But I won’t here’s why. I have reasons as a woman and they’re not bad.

Here we go again she’s doing one of her ponderings, you would probably say. And we have the beach file photo picture that she puts on there every time she thinks about somethings but can’t figure out what to put on there for art or pictures.

I’ve been thinking about giving up this blog because there’s too much going on. But I can’t. I have a thought about giving it up for Lent. But it’s not much to give up.

Trust me, this blog is not much to look at. Except for the sunrises and sunsets and the traveling we used to do.

But I made it regular life because many of you come here on vacation and don’t know what regular life is!

And since I have some kind of Catholic faith I don’t know what it is but I do get a lot of prayers answered somehow! I include faith in it. Face it honey to all of those who would give me trouble, the national Catholic register, those Catholic bloggers who think they know it all, and others, I’m very educated and very well read.

I would bet money that I would beat them in the Catholic I Q test. You might want to tell them I have a minor in theology and a certification as a catechist.

Now, to the rest of the secular world this cup this blog does it mean too much. It just means a lot to me here in there when I see something pretty I put it in here.

This is like a side thought when I have time, and when I think about something, or what it pisses me off or makes me mad not that mad.

I’ve tried lately just her way from politics because I put a clock in my head that says that Mr. 45 can only be there for so long. We have Constitution that’s solid. Deep down inside he really doesn’t matter to me and the rest of those crazy people don’t matter to me at all either. They’re fluff to me. I know I have a deeper life than this. I hope I’m deeper than them. I hope that I go deeper than just worshiping a man in the White House. My prayer is a lot deeper than that garbage. I know this and I would stake my life on it.

I can’t under any circumstance put work in here because first of all I’ve worked my butt off to get my Masters degree, and second of all I signed a confidentiality thing which means that I will not put anything about the kids in here . It would be nice, if I could but that’s one area of my life I’m just going to have to not blog about. It would be very nice to be able to do that. But, I just can’t do it people I have to figure that out. I serve in a local school system right now and until I get my certification that’s taking a lot of my time. How so? Well for one thing I have one last class online for ESOL. This means that curricular and Esau is the last 60 hour element that means that I will have an endorsement for ESOL in the state of Florida Department of Education. After I’m done, I might as well go take the stinking test.

But most do you humans only care about yourself anyway so why would you even read this part of it. ESOL is an element that means you can teach English to immigrants or people want to learn English who do not have English as their first language.

Add this to the test that I have to take in May that I’m studying my butt off for after this Esol element is done, and I have time to actually write. And add that to my husband’s diabetes issues that we have to deal with. And we walk a dog who is temperamental as hell about doing his business. Often I don’t get in till seven 8 o’clock at night every night because I work a second job.

And somehow in between it all put a Lent in there. Remember now, I’m up since 5 AM and sometimes 455 or 4:45 in the morning.

I think I do pretty good about Lent I’m up every morning at 5 AM to do meditation, which according to a Facebook entry, I’m up before the college seminarians in Miami. I don’t want to be accused of pride, but I think I kick some ** there. They don’t have to be at class until 830 I have to be at work sometimes at 7 AM. If I go to two schools that means I have to be there by 6:50 every morning when I take those assignments which is pretty often sometimes.

The nice part about the early assignments is if you get out at 1:30 or 2 o’clock. But then all you want to do when you get home is sleep. Yes folks, are you want to do when you get up that early asleep in the afternoon. No matter how early you go to bed.

I’m up a lot earlier than their steak and retirees which Tony don’t even get me started there. They’re in La La Land. Many of them go to my church and just look at me like hard with the big guy dies with the mouth open. They drive me crazy.

Imagine that, I actually work for a living. I work another job delivering things such as food for three of the local delivery companies that are out there online on your phone. I don’t know how long I’m going to be doing that but until we get our certification, I can’t get paid the grade that I want to get paid in the local school system.

But how much do teachers make here? They can make as much as $70,000 a year! But the cost of living here in Florida is extremely expensive. Rent alone in most places for a one bedroom is $1100.

I think you now see daily life in Florida at at it’s reality: it’s not cheap. I spend a lot of my time dealing with keeping everybody away and have it making it so they don’t nag me about stupid little things. That’s what it’s into my my writing time.

So what somebody like me doing dealing with all of this stuff instead of spending what’s mine doing what I want? I don’t have it yet.

I’m sorry people that I got pulled in different directions. I’m sorry this blog is not what you’re really looking for , but it’s what you need. It’s reality. It’s a story of a working woman. I keep going on. But isn’t that what it’s about perseverance?

And let to me is the story of true surrender it’s not about Lenten methods it’s not about what you give up. It’s about what you do for others and taking an honest look at yourself and just saying I can do this but I can’t do that.

Oh yeah, it’s also about not trying to fit in somebody’s stinking mold. I tell those people to go back across the Florida state line. That’s where they belong! Well, that will happen soon because of geography and the weather report. They’re going to leave soon because it’s going to get hot and I can’t handle it and we laugh. Not many people want to be here with the 90° weather hits.

But why are you ranting on and on about the weather? I see that you’ve never suffered in 90° heat wave that last for six months. That is exactly what it’s like here. True, I am enjoying the fact that I’m enjoying the air conditioning for the first time in three years after moving toward our apartment. But it was a long three years of sweating! And seeing these relative or non-relative retirees or winter residence or just look at you with cheesy smile’s and see what’s in that or honey? Meanwhile, I’m sweating my butt off with no air conditioning in my house no air conditioning in my car.

Don’t even get me started about the car that’s another entry here. We have a 2005 Chrysler Sebring convertible that it’s on it’s last leg.

I don’t even think of saying that I don’t do enough for Lent because that car is a permanent Lent. I think I’m not even going to blog about it I’m just going to film it one day and I think you’ll get the idea of why in the hell is this lady driving this crazy car? Well you’ll understand that well let’s just let’s just video it one day I’ve already videoed it a few times and I think me Billy maybe people need to know what it’s like for common people here in Florida while are you in La La Land vacationing here.

I’ll still be here persevering and trying to surrender to a Triune Divine God who doesn’t live in the White House. I’m kind of glad that 45 god doesn’t know I exist. That’s the most comforting thing to me right now I’m in a little corner of the country and they in the DC area do not know I exist. Which is a good thing, because I can ignore them in peace. I plan on ignoring everybody else in peace except for a few things. I have a pink pussy hat in my car. When I see a trump sticker I wave it out at them. I really waving at them when they passed me and almost threw me off the road. That’s a common occurrence around here because only does pick them up trucks they drive too fast. When I see the state highway patrol or a law-enforcement agent pulled him over I just really waive that hat.

Yeeehawww. You have to watch me wave that hat. That hat is on my front dashboard in your face. That man is no way Christian because of all the stuff he’s done. Don’t even get me started on the rest of what I’d like to say here.

Got that? You are so blessed to have read this.

5 Comments

  1. That’s a good decision for you not to give up your blog. You said that your blog is not what people are looking for, but it’s what they need. More importantly I think that from your writing, it is what you need.

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