Sorry folks but I’ve been out there trying to make a buck in the last three weeks.

Honestly it has not been easy. We just got new insurance and I’m now searching for a primary care physician and a new dentist.

So, I’ve had to really put blogging on hold for a while while I’m out there trying to scrape up a living. You see I work four days a week as a sub teacher with my county school district, I’ve been doing some delivery driving for instant money, in about 2 1/2 weeks ago I went to an online teaching seminars to be able to teach online so I wouldn’t have to drive.

Add that to the weekly cold fronts in Florida and that’s my daily Florida life! How am I taking the cold? Are! It’s not 105° when I’m trying to move everything in a moving pod. I live for this sometimes. But I don’t like five or six Canadians from Ontario cutting me off on the road because they’re visiting here for the winter.

My end of January New Year’s resolution is to drive less and teach more. We shall see how that pans out. So in essence right now I’m working three micro jobs. But I’m not without any money to read, right now I’m getting ready to finish my last requirement so I could have my teaching certificate renewed. So, it’s not forever that I’m going to be doing this and I kind of been been enjoying getting to meet all the restaurant people that I’ve been meeting. And I’ve also been trying to hang onto her car. So that’s the stress of what I’ve been dealing with the last few weeks.

Because of the weird hours that we’ve been working, we eat out a lot. We eat out and a $20 or less budget per meal for the two of us.

What about our car? The oil lights been on. So I put oil in it the light went on again I put more oil in it I pulled over to the service station and had it checked out totally fine he says. No, five years ago we took a little trip to the other coast and the car has not been the same since it jerks and has transmission issues but still runs. We’re looking for another car.

I somehow missed the days of what I had a rental car and drove for Lyft during the summer as a summer job before the school year started. It made me totally oblivious to what was going on outside the car because it was so hot outside. I asked myself the serious question is is that how most of the church is been because it seems like a lot of pastors drive the same kind of Hyundai car and are totally oblivious to what’s going on outside. Honestly I told myself no wonder!

Anyhow, I’m back here for a few paragraphs and glad I could make another visit here. Honestly, I’m thinking of giving up this blog and doing something more creative and different but will get to that before Easter.

If I don’t give up this, my husband and I eventually will be doing a travel blog around Florida. Or I could do a literature blog that travels around Florida. Let’s take care of the car first! Then that I can think about doing stuff like that.

This work is not much to look at but it is in Florida I’m not doing weird things that a lot of the crazy off-the-wall Floridians do. I go to work most every day, and I try not to give people too much trouble. So, how about that?

Give me the credit and the sunshine that I’m here still after 18 years of blogging. I try to give more emphasis on the positive then the troll negativity that I used to do. It’s not much to look at, but I’ve been blogging often on since 2003 &2004.

But conversely, in the last 3 1/2 weeks has me totally worn out because I’ve been also donating plasma to a local plasma company that pays me. And it’s usually after a donation if you’re very tired and just want to relax for the evening and not like it all. But, I have a long list of household stuff that just got shortened because we live in a one bedroom apartment and I don’t think we need half the stuff we used to have. I also no longer have I’m over the top gardening neighbor next-door anymore. The neighborhood we used to live in had a lot of yard freaks. Honestly they threw on the guilt so bad that you if you went to your car to do anything on the weekends, you felt guilt pulling out of the neighborhood that you didn’t know your lunch so perfectly like they did.

Coming up in the next 3 to 4 months we are going on an RV trip somewhere after we rent an RV hopefully. I guess you’re just sitting there wondering why am I working so long and hard? I would like to make enough money. I said it again. Period. I want to see if you work hard how much I can make?

And, I also would like to finally finish the edit of this so-called writing project I’ve been keeping top-secret. It needs a serious edit probably on spring break I just don’t want to have six things interrupted me all at once. To tell you the truth, every time I hear a certain song I see a movie end to it so maybe something good might come out of this?! I’ll believe it when I see it. What in the hell do I mean by the movie end? I hear the song playing and maybe it’s my movie? I don’t know.

Anyhow, that’s what’s been going on lately that’s why I have not been on here lately and I’ll get back in the mood of doing it every other day. Or at least taking pictures as to what’s going on.

But readers what would you like to see this blog become? P.m. me at size @STARK61555 on Twitter and let me know what you would like this blog to be more like? Would you like to see more pictures, more daily life of Florida or more funny things in Florida? Remember, I’m not a superficial person and I kind a like to have a conversation here sometimes.

And to the people who I work with who happen to just find out that I have a blog, don’t worry there’s nothing un ethical or bad here going on just boring daily Florida life and you’re probably you see a lot of it except for when you pushed back a few years when I was trolling some really ultra conservative traditional list of people that I got mad at. That’s about it. There’s no kids on here, just a lot of beach a lot a dog a lot of husband and a lot of me. Kind of boring remember that! I’ll get that to work and stop looking to accuse me of stuff that’s really bad it just highlights Florida life and the chamber of commerce with me if they saw this blog so trust me, that’s what it’s like here. I got started after I went to graduate school and kept coming back to Florida and started seeing what we have here. There’s no snow up north you it’s obvious so back to work back to your your your life and I’ll be on my own life but I’ll still keep the blog here.

Oh yeah, when were thing occasionally I let these northerners know that we get very cheap Disney tickets. And I also let them know that we have some pretty awesome sunsets. And then I said there is stare at them and I wait for them to go back up north because they can’t handle the heat.

OK, I’m going back to making the almighty dollar and fixing our home till the way we want it. Back to work!

Oh yeah, happy new year 2019 and happy early Valentine’s Day. Not one of these paragraphs is probably grammatically correct because I speak into my iPad. And that stinking thing can never spell and sad by the time I’m done I don’t want to edit it.

One more thing: I guess you haven’t noticed or maybe you have noticed I don’t mention with the political stuff or what’s going on in Washington DC! I’m not mentioning anything about the abortion issue in New York, nothing more about the Covington garbage and that’s all I’m gonna say here at the bottom. Nothing I don’t care I just don’t think any of that’s worth my time on the creative block like this one I’m not gonna think about it 24 seven I pray for them and my humility is enough that I can’t do a single damn thing about any of those issues because they’re 1000 miles away and the sunshine outside in Florida and that’s that.

Got that? We’re done here.

OK, I’m adopted. I’m not really sure I like this New York abortion law. Can’t we do better? I teach school. One day, I hope to do summer school at the New York State just an item on my bucket list. But when you’re killing children in any means that’s not job security.

There’s a problem here folks. I’m gonna say it again there’s a problem with your folks. Why did you do this? But frankly I think people do all of this as an act of despair. And despair sucks!!! You don’t make healthy decisions when you despair or you jump in the bed with just about anybody.

Hello say you have to be the 1950s, I’m totally feminist. But I don’t think you should have to jump in the bed with just about anybody. Yeah healthy boundaries that need to be put up before you head that direction. Don’t do it anyway. You need to have healthy relationships.

But it seems that a state that is produced Donald Trump does not know what healthy relationships are! I will say: state that produces Donald Trump, and where he hails from the state of New York, does not know what healthy relationships are! So this is only a product of what you have! But I could fully expect that 45 has paid for abortions for his mistresses. Because he didn’t wanna be responsible and he changes his mind a lot. Read the news he has done it so many times. And he has lied. Take it from there.

I’m writing this on my own and no bishop or the Vatican or anybody else for that matter, paid me to do this. I’m doing this on my own. I’m adopted and I escaped. I’m writing this on my own and no bishop or the Vatican or anybody else for that matter, paid me to do this. I’m doing this on my own. I’m adopted and I escaped.

I am doing this of my own free will because I think people need to be very responsible. In capital letters I would shout don’t jump in bed with everybody that you think you should jump in bed with. These people have psycho needs and they’re not getting mad or they need counseling to have a responsible relationship. I’m not the Duggers who believe in old-fashioned courting.

There’s got to be a balance somewhere?! I put my hands up and absolute disgust.

I’m not traditional in a very serious way. Which means in my own respect I’m creative and I like to solve problems. And I don’t like doing what everybody else is doing. At college was a good time for me back in the 80s. I never was into the hook up culture. I had a damn brain in my head and I thought more of myself than to throw myself in bed with someone I didn’t know.

To my old home state of New York, I don’t know what the psychological problem is, but it seems like nobody wants to be responsible. So we kill it. Yeah, I’m going to make a stand here. Honestly, I don’t think abortion is as prevalent as people say. But maybe I have my head in the sand in a bad way. But, I think that something could be done. I don’t think it’s necessary.

On a personal note, I’m adopted. Last spring and summer I went back into my file. I wanted to and did a test. I found 200 and 300 400 cousins of mine. The closest cousins and I started talking. It was very hard to find who is who and who is on which side since I was adopted as an infant. So, I started emailing everybody! There were is perplexed as ours because I guess back in the 60s when I was born, no one told anybody anything.

So I was driving around on my summer job when I got this email. It was from my cousin Frank and I had to pull over. See, my cousin Frank apparently was on my biological father side. And he is a third cousin at best at that. His mother is my second cousin. She’s about 80 years old. I found out sadly that my biological father died in Orlando in 2001. Today I got a Facebook picture that he’s now a grandfather! Congrats Frank!

Oh him a whole lot right now for a living and getting connected with this part of my actual family. It doesn’t make me any less a person in my adopted family. The way I look at it I have a right hand I have a left-hand I have a left arm and a right arm. Different parts of my body yeah it’s mine. But I have to be responsible.

Being responsible is knowing what boundaries are in knowing how my actions affect everyone else’s. In 2004, I learned that no one is an island and no one is is an island. Everything we do affects everybody else they can’t be me first all the time.

I was driving along and then I get this email and pulled over. I said that already but I got it in for size it. It seems that my mother and my father couldn’t reconcile the fact that I was coming. I went into my file up in the city of New York and found my original name. It just was two words the date of birth and the registry. Did the source of my cousin I found out that playing around seem to be the rule of thumb with her old end of the family. She had found another life and seemed very happy and she said she was happy. Now we’re talking about my cousin not my mother not my father I have yet to meet even my mother or my mothers people.

Readers do you know it gets on my freaking nerves beyond the beyond and what makes me wanna choke a few people? When they accused me of not being responsible and doing bad things when I couldn’t have children! Maybe I should go back and choke a few people.

My husband and I got married in 1998 , I was 34 and about to be 35 that following July. Trust me, we tried to have children & I was not going to adopt because it was $17,000 to adopt a baby. To adopt an older child would’ve meant that I would’ve had to get a house and put myself in serious debt. I was certainly not going to do an IVF. I don’t want the shots I didn’t want to waste money on something that was not going to actually produce a child. We just made that decision and, I just decided that it wasn’t the best thing. We thought about doing an IVF but that was another $30,000. I had just signed off on my student loans after teaching special needs children. I did everything possible every single novena possible, every trip up to Saint Augustine to the lady at La Leche. And after the last trip I just decided it wasn’t worth it. I was having a strain on my marriage and by then I was ready to choke just about every fat Catholic Thundera on the planet.

Trust me, I still make fun of you if you’re fat oversized have six children and give me a hard time. I’m assertive. I make no bones about it if you give me a hard time you coming to get it. I’m all said here: I’m no less of a woman because I have no children. That’s how it works deal with it.

When you falsely accuse someone you deserve to be choked and thrown to alligators. I have no mercy on you!!!

But this New York law I think certain somebody up there needs to sit out with those people and say hey, we don’t have to charge 17,000 or even $30,000 for people to adopt a baby.

But hey, don’t they get free stuff anyway without you paying them?

And what in the hell do you guys have to do this? I don’t get it I wanna hear somebody PM me or text me a Twitter to tell me why do you have to open this abortion up for all time? Even if they are a special needs child is there a medical way that they could heal them?

I’m asking questions! Got that?